NOT exactly what I wanted to hear as I prayed that morning. NOT something that brought a smile to my face. But my heart knew it was right. My flesh screamed out but my heart responded, "Peace over popularity. Do the right thing."
So for several months I walked on a path of transition, a path that I knew would ultimately lead me away from what I was currently doing. A new road that would take me on my next bumpy journey.
But I knew that others wouldn't understand. They didn't see what I saw. They didn't hear what I heard. "God, this won't make sense to others. They won't get it," I reasoned with Him so many times.
But you see I have never been able to run away from the whispers of His presence, the beckoning of His voice. Once I hear it, I am compelled to follow. So I did.
Exactly 12 months later in December 2015, I made a huge decision for our family. I resigned my volunteer position as a worship leader at our church. With hands shaking, I typed a letter explaining my intentions. It wasn't my hand. I felt His hand over mine. Gliding through the keys, penning the exact sentiment He wanted.
When I read the letter to my family, there was a collective sigh. My children both said, "Momma, this was the right thing to do. God already told us." My husband grabbed me and said, "It's time for your next adventure. Let it go." You see my family had suffered from me not responding sooner. During my wrestling with God, they had wrestled as well. But the moment I obeyed, the burden lifted. They were at peace. And so was I.
Did everyone understand? Absolutely not. Like at all. But that's okay. I have learned that listening to Jesus far outweighs listening to anyone else. He is my safe place. I trust Him.
God asks us to do hard things. But when you love Him, you cling to Him. You run to Him. You hold on to Him.
It doesn't have to make sense. You just do it because you know it's right.
So today it begins for us. Scared. Excited. Broken. Ready. Big breath-let's leap!
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